Alco-holed discussions!!!

you dont know what drinking is unless you have sat down in a bar with a high ball glass alone in the murkiest corner with a head so light and a heart so heavy that land slips beneath your feet.The cruelest of lies are always told in silence....and those who say they blurt out the truth every time spirit crosses the thresh hold of their esophagus are the worst of d liars....or is it liers im confused ...check for yourself....
all the lifes miseries,your losses start playing a slide show infront of your eyes....either you become 2 quiet or too chirpy...either way you realize whats wrong with you even when evrything is going silk smooth...
mind plays hide and seek.....head is spinning 1200 rpm,,.....and evrything wrong ever happened is out there in full glory for evryone around to witness and smirk....
long time back one of my friend drunk called me and said "i wasnt supposed to be born..." the best happened after that...i remembr i 2 was a bit high and hence started the conversation of a life time wherein i replied "exactly...you wrnt suposed to be born and i wasnt suposed to live so what do we do next....i told him to pick a pink floyd no...and play it in background for the obvious ambience it provides....n i still remember  shine on you crazy diamond was playing...
ohh the things we do when we are drunk....some turn philosopher....some self haters.....some fall in love with evry thing they come acrss...even the inanimate things....chair,stool,glass....u name it....
we question gods working....we rebuke lifes unfairness....we procastinate.....we repent......we relent......only to revert to our fake self the next morning....
but also true is the fact that alcohol annihilates the inhibitions like nothing does.....whatever is gnawing at the back of  our heads come right out in front....
ahh the pleasures of drinking......i knw im being extremely optimistic but if ever i get some super-high position in administration 1st thing ill do wl b legalize drinking in every possible way....may b i wud make it mandatory for the citizens of indian republic to drink and start work or they will b hanged till death....but that wud b dictatorship not democracy.....
your head is swimming in wine and your fingers get smoke stained(exceptions like me keep free of smoke...)
you want the midnight to stand still for ever....like a midnight mass.....and you pour another drink in your glass....
you discover holes in your soul......
and you dont realize you have been crying in your beer....

Rooftop rhasodies!!!!

                                       
The biggest misconception of our neo world is that we are living in this world,we are in sync with our surroundings......we are communicating with people.....when in reality all we do is share our thoughts with our ownself......the world is how we perceive it .....it transpires as we feel it....all we do is build our own understanding of the world.....and act accordingly create our own fears and live through them.....if only we start communicating with the world......if only we start saying whats on our mind....but we never do......
all we utter is what this world wants to hear.....
we forget that nothing is perfect in this world....perfection is our own customizable asset which we all have....which allows us to cruise thru the twisted tiffanies of life....even when we are irreparably messed up....people who lag behind are the extremists either they are too strong to bother about the worldly norms of success or too weak too be in the rat race......i read somewhere that even if you win in a rat race you are still a rat....
its  a tough calling amidst the waves of life to remind yourself on a daily basis that you are of a own kind and no one in this world will ever be what you already are and no one will ever know what you know....our differences are what defines us.....but we forget that fact....
Expectations!!!!!! other ingredient of life....but exactly like salt, too much and you spoil the beautiful quiche lorraine, too little and you keep craving for more.....its easy to have them but extremely difficult to fulfill them....every time we suffer some teeny tiny emotional trauma and the first thought that shoots from our gut through our nose to our puny minds is that we wont expect any thing from any one....forgetting that we are not wired for that kind of super human expression.......
If only we could attain that thoughtless state for even a nano second of our life.....its tough...

to be continued.....