white christmas!!

I guess i was 13-14 when i first heard this song..."white christmas" and i asked every adult in sight the meaning of white christmas coz my teeny tiny mind was unable to comprehend the vast,unfathomable white christmas....14 years have passed since then and white christmas is unravelling infront of me...not that its snowing in mumbai....(its still time for 2012 to arrive.....:P)  but out of the dark it hits me...

well what do i say its christmas...n the only company i have right now is Remo,Geeta,Terence....yeah im idling infront f the junk box.....AKA TV....cheers to a christmas like dis...but i guess it has its pros as well.....it makes me realize there will b loads f moments like these when you wont have ne one to share d christmas eve...or still better christmas cake....ahh few years back...christmas meant knee deep in books...university timings clashed with santas sleigh....christmas meant ritika mams home made cakes.....without a miss......christmas meant goading up on woollens and crashing in library....

white christmas....i miss it....

cheers to christmas.....cheers to santa.....:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36bMqbiorcE&feature=related

this just describes it without much ado....
100s f ppl in our "contacts" 90 ppl online....100s f name in phnbook....bt whom do i call....i dnt even bother to pick up phn....im better spending time with remo,geeta,terence.....

cheers to christmas.....white christmas....gloomy christmas....
santa where are you....??

Unchained wings

its time to leave....to get away from insipid world .....to plunge in assemblage of thoughts that have been twisted tangled in silver strands of freedom.....to see the iridescent memories that flash whenever you squint in sun or moon...to detach yourself from all the people who are just wood painted flesh around you

Miseries of being a sagittarian

Heads will nod if i say right now that there are times when we get frustrated with our own shortcomings so much so that we start finding flaws in everything related to us....something similar attacked me last night at exactly 3.30 A.M. while i was busy cramming radiological nicknames of diseases i have never even encountered in my clinical classes....suddenly my mind did a 180 degree swing from studies to all kind of crap and i came up with the flaws of my sunsign.....the archers....sagittarian.....here are few worth mentioning....
1.Disgustingly Optimistic---Oh this is a big time yes from all the archers out there .Our ship is sinking,the rats have already deserted the captain still we the ultimate positive thinkers will thank GOD for making the rats leave so the ship is lighter.....Our BFF(best friends forever...for those who r still living in dark ages!!!!!!) is making out with our own lover and all we will get mushy about is "thank god,they are getting along well..."
This one is from personal experience...we dont study for the monstrous exams and will pray that only those questions will come which we have studied . yeah we are the breed that lives optimism,breathes positivity,and thrives on good will. But it has its own downfall....we tend to bite more than we can chew....and we never see the land as it lies.

2.Hopeless romantics----yesssss i've spelled it in capital letters.We are the romantics at heart,we do believe in all that candy floss,honey-dipping,tear-jerking stuff we see in bollywood movies.We are the 90% of the population that makes these movies hit.Whenever SRK blurts out "मैंने तुम्हे इतनी शिद्दत से पाने की कोशिश की है....." we have our hearts in our mouth, we cry every time we see "the notebook" or "sleepless in seattle" and worst of all we do believe there is a soulmate for all of us just like nicolas cage in city of angels....phewwwww

3.egomaniacs---Ive said it out loud...its something we are not ashamed of but not even something we love to flaunt. The world has deteriorated so much so that ass-kissing is considered an art ...a talent. But we flow opposite to the sea..instead of swallowing our pride in extreme of conditions and sucking up to the people to cut our losses we attack HEAD-ON....and BAMM!! End up hurting ourselves..be it professionally,personally...you name it you got it.

4.easily bored ----*sigh *sigh *sigh we crave for materialistic things that we know will never be within our reach in our wildest of imaginations but we work our asses off to get them and the moment we try our hands on them something better catches our eye.
The worst thing is the same happens with our personal relationships as well.We get so bored of people surrounding us that we tend to hurt them unintentionally though.But then again our knack for being the care-giver gets us back in the good books.

LAST AND THE WORST OF ALL.....we are the philosophers at heart.everything has to have some random philosophy attached to it for us....and we try to make world understand this....with impeccable timing at times....(sarcasm...duh) people are going thru heart breaks we will make them understand there is some one better for them.....someone lost their job and we are enumerating the things to do on our free time.....

i still have atleast 50-60...more...but for the time being this much is sufficient to pull me back to earth from my present "on cloud nine.." location....so far so good...

Spiritual awakening..

Reality escapes you when you are least expecting it. The moment you think you have got hold on your life and you are the incharge of reigns of your destiny….the Universe decides to play an upper hand and makes us (the inferior) realize we are just a zillionth part of an immensely complicated and ever changing universe. Submission to an almighty leads to salvation and detoxification of your blemished souls and tarnished hearts.

People never realize their extent of sins unless they take a never ending journey to the core of their heart. Micro mini moments of human faults congregate to form a huge slob of a repulsive mirror….No one can look at their image in that even if you do you wont recognize yourself.

You have forgotten to breathe spiritually, you have given up on the miracles of faith,trust,love and care. Wake up before its too late, wake up before someone reaches out to your sanctum and devour it with their greediness and selfish ulterior motives.

All you have to do is look beyond the horizon and listen above the din of worldy affairs and you will see the reality without the tinted glasses.

Love spiritually..

all our childhood we grow up believing in fairytales of love and friendship not realizing that crushes will be crushed at every step...we fall into oblivion every time thinking our life is over and we will never be able to love again,trust again...Lt.Jagjit Singhs song becomes our saviour(i know most of you are nodding in agreement..:)  ).What we fail to understand is that God has already painted the dream for us and decided the tune of our song...But we fail to recognize the brighter shades hidden behind the murky tragedies of our life and forget the notes of our own life song .......When someone sings it  back to us.....BAAMM it flashes like a phospherescent glow light to us ..we pray silently to the invisible all-mighty for spelling it out for us and throwing the spot-light on the lead actor of our reel/real life....well he might not be a Ranbir Kapoor look alike or share siddhartha mallyas platinum spoon status but is the most significant piece of our puzzle..and we realize why it never worked out with any one else..no one ever touches the core of your heart which dreams and when some one does you connect.We grow up the moment we make a transition from "opposites-attract" too "similar-thinking"
We understand that "forever yours" are not just two words but convey an iternal commitment.The moment we give up on love is the moment we die spiritually...I might sound cheesy but you just have to look around the corner ....Forever Yours..
Dedicated to love.

Untitled

I stopped at the spotlight
in the middle of the night
To my right is history
To my left the choice i think is right!!!




The corner nightlamp glimmers along
the flickering shadow of the banyan dances around me
Heart said follow the dark 
If its the light you seek to see.




The step ahead plummets me to the heights unknown
Words belonged to you,But thoughts were my own
Its better to be lonely than to be lost
They were always your dreams I dreamt about the most.




I have been knocking on your door since long,
and I can knock some more
But I need to know you are still inside,coz 
my sanity has died and washed ashore.




Love is not love which alters
When alteration it finds.
Wise men say its never bout the heart
always bout the minds!!!!!!!!

Trust me!!!!!

"Trust" has become something of a rarity now a days.....trust me its true(pun intended!!!) You walk around and meet 100s f people in your entire life span....BONDING as we the humans call it(pssst as if I know the term aliens might b using  :P)
Let me exemplify this fact in black and white literally...a perfect story straight out of a sitcom....2 best friends (since they were like 5).They "bonded" 1st during a social gathering while there moms were busy sizing up the society...and that beginning was supposed to culminate in a journey of a life time.....OOPS!!!! Real life is a bit tiffany twisted than that....trust me....(Arrrrgggghhh I'd have to get rid of the habit of saying "trust me" over every petty thing..)The purrr-fect story did continue to be a dream like sequence....they were each other's shadow...unseperable..always there for each other....age of 5 changed to 15 in a blink of an eye(and this will b the place where i take my creative liberty...) lets say 5 turned to 15 with a drag of cigerette....Now thats what i call "spirit-ed creativity"(get the pun people....)
Not only did the age changed but also the topics of discussion...from "dogs" to "dawgs...aka guyz" ohh cum on folks..dont sulk....im pretty sure all of you must have gone through this weird phase when the opposite sex was "enemy" The "best friends" had an exclusive invitation -only club also S.T.A.B=stay away from boys....:)
And i just remembered i still havent named the girls ryt????Well lets call them ..."charmer" and "geek" Poles apart they were....but still together so much so the geek dedicated a poem to the charmer ..
The charmer charmed the people while the geek gawked...the charmer taught or rather tried to teach her how to play the games but alas....the geek stuck to her primordial beliefs and refused to be a part of the madness of the then changing dating culture....in short she remained a loyal member of the STAB  club..(occasional exceptions inevitable...blame it on the hormones...::P)
The charmer got her way by hook or crook.....and the geek helped her in every possible way to keep up the "integrity" of the best friend tag she had..GIRL BONDINGGG!!!!
The story would have been perfect had the charmer been completely honest with the geek which she never was(only she knows why??)The web of lies and crap was being spun around the geek...and she was too blind to acknowledge any of that...
Instances of the fake purrfect friendship----on 1 fine friendship day(Yesssss dont roll your eyes,,,,back then it was a huge craze..) they snuck out of there respective homes to surprise each other only to meet each other halfway and fall in splits and lingered on the cantt roads...Lazyyy sunday afternoons were spent in British library amongst Sherlock holmes and Agatha Christie....sounds honey-dipped...
Im drifting from the topic...all this was happening while the charmer was poisoning everyone around with her lies and cacophony of crap (including some weird lies about her supposedly best friend..)and the worst of all everyone was trying to protect her non-existent decency and integrity
The charmer was able to keep everyone under her spell for a pretty long time ....the mythical bubble burst when all the damage was done..
Moral of the story ...well its a cliche....dont ever trust the people closest to you..
What do you do when the most perfect part of your life is snatched and turned to mere dust...
How long you should brood over something so petty and significant at the same time....
The answers have not been found outt yet and will never be available because you cant fight the tears that are not there....and you can never find the rain to wash away the past...
The whole and soul aim of writing this...to send this link to both the geek and the charmer and see if they can recognize themselves....

P.S.No query will be entertained regarding the identity of both the geek and the charmer....:P

Dreams in violet

Im gonna live another day
today just let me die
Just let me touch the purple ray!!!
Or I'm afraid its gonna fly high




You are flowing through me like my own satin blood
Your face sparkled ,your smile shone
Im gonna hurt your soul along with me
Coz right now you are the only one I own.....




I have been here before,when or why I do not know
I know the footprints beyond the door
It comes in a blur all in a row
I cringe everytime you leave the shore.




I have been up all night
Just let me rest for a while,
The sunrays are searing up my soul
The stars reflect my tragic smile.




The flawless sinner has dulled my pace
Alas!!for eternity Im stuck in this haze...

happy valentine....really??

the last thing that comes to my mind when i think about romance is a pudgy,semi naked,fugly kid pointing an arrow towards me....yeah you guessed it rite....im talking about cupid....i mean what did he do to bribe st valentines to make him represent love.....im logged on facebook right now and if i see 1 more happy valentine status update ill puke....r u serius ....how can every1 b  so crazy about dis stupid day.....n trust me....the corniest of the status updates will come out of the ppl who hav never dated ne1 in their entire life....
200 ppl on ur fb frend list....17-18 ppl wil always b online.....90 ppl on ur phn buk....but when u land up in real hot soup....u luk around n BAAM....you are alone...n we wish valentine to whole of ur facebuk contacts....
to hell with this hypocricy..... those schmucks who keep on ranting about love do they even understand the meaning...i might sound archaic when i say this but i still belong to that population who fell in love with 1 person .....n believed in "till death parts us"...and god only knows im not blabbering.....
love never was about spending time together....love never was watching muvies hand in hand....love never was about mushy sms....agreed these do make the course of love easier....
im proud to say ive known people who have actually dedicated their life to their love...in weird ways though.....
ive known ppl who even after knowing they dont stand a chance with the person they r so hopelessly in love with ...keep a track of their problems so that they can help dem.....i mean how many ppl do that....
n its disheartening to see that ppl who are the  real lovers suffer each and every damn time.....the more unfaithful the person is the more she/he gets another chance....
damn im drifting away from the topic.....i really really long to go back to the classics....the types "an affair to remember " types..."city of angels" types....now a days even the muvies are made...."deception"..."unfaithful"
apt for the times though.....
ppl just love the idea of being in love...they never mean it.....they say they will always be with you in ur thick and thins....they say they will always hav 1 ear free to listen 2 ur troubles......they say we can tell them nething under the sun......but when we do we sound "caustic" to them.....they ignore us.....so much for being honest about our feelings....it takes a real strong person to admit something like this.....provided its a real deal.....
n nt just a trick to get in smones bed....
we run the fastest and farthest when we run away from our own self....i read this somewhere....n it took me 27 years 2 realize dat ppl dnt mean sometimes the things they say....o hell they never mean nething they say....n we like fools trust them n pour our hearts out 2 them...but the fact that got amiss was that they were just luking for another juicy piece of gossip
shucckkks im drifting from the topic again....may b it has to do something with being single...on "v-day"
:-)
i wish i cud jolt these novices....outta dere mind n ask them what are they doing....its definitely not love.....
p.s, to be continued,.....